The hungry addict has fallen. I've exercised once in the last two weeks. I have eaten the fattiest, greasy shit in the last 3 weeks. I went on a cruise last week with my wife. Buffets, pina coladas, buffets, Mai Tai's, buffets, laying on my ass in the sun. Although relaxing and wonderful, I am home and still overeating and slipping back into a sedentary funk. I haven't posted for some time now, maybe because I am embarrassed by the incredible backslide that I have experienced. But then I remembered that this blog is about honesty. Brutal honesty. I have fallen down but I will return. I was feeling really good about my weight loss and fitness. I slept better (didn't snore as much), I used to get heartburn all of the time and that had almost disappeared. I had more energy and felt more alive. I haven't returned to the deconditioned lump of fat that I used to be, but I can feel the decline. There are no contests anymore. There is no personal trainer. It is just me. I am a fighter.
In the clearing stands a boxer, and a fighter by his trade. And he carries the reminders of every glove that laid him down or cut him til he cried out in his anger and his shame I am leaving, I am leaving, but the fighter still remains......................
Thanks for not giving up on the Hungry Addict
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Hey Fatboy! Glad to see you back. Now that your back why don't you grab your dictionary and look up the word dedication.
Who are you kidding? Your not coming back. I used to look to you for inspiration, but you failed me and yourself. Just like my Father failed me when he left when I ten. Eat shit and die you fat prick.
Welcome back Hungry. I missed you. I have been off the exercise wagon for several weeks, but walked today to an episode of Scrubs and walked two days ago to Georgie Girl.
Ate so so, but not horrible.
Trying to live well consistently is a challenge for me.
A support buddy of mine says, "Time to stop and once traffic has cleared, make a safe U-turn.
I will U-turn if you will.
Schedule changes are a big challenge. Anybody can stick to a diet when they do the same thing every day.
Be like the bobble doll and right yourself. Some people jump right in, other people have to edge back there.
One thing I'll say is that the first days of back to your healthy routine/diet are the worst. A person gets used to non-stop snacking and you think you'll starve the first day you go from dinner to breakfast without a few mini-dinners inbetween.
If I've been off my gym stuff for awhile I find it takes about two weeks of regular attendance before I'm back up to snuff.
So head back but be kind to yourself. Also be careful. I had a surgery and was out for 6 weeks. I was so excited to go back to the gym when I was better and dang if I didn't hurt my foot right off.
Next time you go on a vacation or something have a plan for how you'll try and keep with your diet/routine so you won't have to go through this big thing to get back on it again.
Good luck!
"There's no shame in relapse. The shame is not coming back."
--often heard at a Narcotics Anonymous meeting
I'm going to stop my slide, too. Back on the exercise bike today!
Thanks for posting!
Dear Hungry,
Honesty does not have to be brutal. It is only brutal if you fear it. I am working on eliminating all self-deception. Part of that is learning not to be afraid of where the truth will take me. Not being afraid to find out the truth. The truth will set you free.
Forget the past, don't depend on the future, you live in today. You messed up in the past. You can't change that. Solve today's problem today. Tomorrow will never come, and tomorrow will never save you. Only what you do today will make a difference.
So resolve to start at this minute doing what you need to do. Don't waste time regretting the past that cannot be changed. Don't spend time trying to live in the future because you can't. What productive thing can you do this very hour?
You have it in you, just keep on fighting! Find some inspiration. The only thing that can stop yourself from feeling great is yourself!
Hungry,
Write off yesterday and start again. Remember, you are doing this for your kids so that you be there for them as their lives unfold. You are doing this for your wife so that you may still grow old together. You are doing this for you.
Stay strong!
Hungy,
That was yesterday. Today is a different day. GET OFF THE COUCH! We're here for you!
Hungry,
Please post.
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